It's been my first time

struggling with death in my family. I've never had anyone close to me pass away. I never thought I would be affected this much by the death of my grandfather. The worst part is, he hasn't even left this world yet. He's still hanging on. For now, I've been trying to think positive. To not let it get to me like it has. I should have been celebrating his life when he was so close to death. He's still lingering, he just wants to go in peace. They say he has around three weeks to live now. I wish that I had more time with him, but I was glad I got to say "I love you." to him over the phone. I know I won't be able to see him before he passes, but it meant so much to me to hear his voice. I know he will be greatly missed.


L-R: myself, my grandfather,
my grandmother, and my brother in 2005.